yesterday was black friday.
i wore all black as usual.
i played as the black guy in left4dead with the vent boys.
i stayed peasant status and didn't cop anything.
and i didn't use any nodoz either.
it seemed like the longest day ever.
yesterday was also a month later.
i still think about it.
i just realized that.
2008-11-29
2008-11-27
THNKS FR TH MMRS
It seems that every Thanksgiving I'm Q_Qing about something, haha. It also seems that whatever I want, I can't have.. and whatever I'm given, I can't handle.
I suppose this is a random place to start, but I'm thankful for Kanye West and his newest joint, 808s & Heartbreak. Both lyrically and stylistically it somehow got me through the past few days. And by the past few days I mean I'm listening to this album on repeat while I'm in the bathroom, walking to class, crying, or studying -- which is basically all the time I spend awake:
Kanye said in an interview about the album that it's dark and different because that's the kind of music he wanted it to be. He acknowledges that after the loss of his mother and fiancée that he has nothing more to lose, and that not living his life to the fullest to sit around and Q_Q about it would do absolutely nothing to bring back what he lost. (In that same interview, he noted that his upcoming shoe with Nike will be "superfuture"-istic.) In that sense, I'm trying to spend this Thanksgiving by enjoying it without Q_Qing for nothing.
I suppose it would be an appropriate time of the year to measure how much I've changed. Last Thanksgiving was spent Q_Qing over some laughably childish drama, questioning who my friends were, and playing Melee with Jordan. And to think, in just one year, I'll be playing Brawl instead. How things change...
This year I wouldn't say the drama is childish, because I really went through some rough transitions and revelations. I'm thankful for my family and friends who got me through it -- I'm not as strong as I like to think I am.
As for questioning who my friends are -- it's tough to say. I haven't met many people at UCI yet, but there are a handful right now that when I think about it, I'd be really worse off without them. I'm thankful for people that look out for me, who sit with me when I'm eating alone, and who still wave hello to me even though we don't live together nor have any classes together, for the supergays, and for the overachieving honors kids.
Tonight I also got a returned call -- only about a year late, but better late than never. An old friend of mine decided to grow a pair and hit me up to make sure we're still cool, to keep in touch, just to check up. I didn't think much of it at first but now it really gave me hope that if people still care they'll come around eventually. I can only hope so.
...I'm also thankful for Smash because it helped me make a lot of friends and have a lot of fun. :]
I'm thankful for NoDoz too.
I suppose this is a random place to start, but I'm thankful for Kanye West and his newest joint, 808s & Heartbreak. Both lyrically and stylistically it somehow got me through the past few days. And by the past few days I mean I'm listening to this album on repeat while I'm in the bathroom, walking to class, crying, or studying -- which is basically all the time I spend awake:
Kanye said in an interview about the album that it's dark and different because that's the kind of music he wanted it to be. He acknowledges that after the loss of his mother and fiancée that he has nothing more to lose, and that not living his life to the fullest to sit around and Q_Q about it would do absolutely nothing to bring back what he lost. (In that same interview, he noted that his upcoming shoe with Nike will be "superfuture"-istic.) In that sense, I'm trying to spend this Thanksgiving by enjoying it without Q_Qing for nothing.
I suppose it would be an appropriate time of the year to measure how much I've changed. Last Thanksgiving was spent Q_Qing over some laughably childish drama, questioning who my friends were, and playing Melee with Jordan. And to think, in just one year, I'll be playing Brawl instead. How things change...
This year I wouldn't say the drama is childish, because I really went through some rough transitions and revelations. I'm thankful for my family and friends who got me through it -- I'm not as strong as I like to think I am.
As for questioning who my friends are -- it's tough to say. I haven't met many people at UCI yet, but there are a handful right now that when I think about it, I'd be really worse off without them. I'm thankful for people that look out for me, who sit with me when I'm eating alone, and who still wave hello to me even though we don't live together nor have any classes together, for the supergays, and for the overachieving honors kids.
Tonight I also got a returned call -- only about a year late, but better late than never. An old friend of mine decided to grow a pair and hit me up to make sure we're still cool, to keep in touch, just to check up. I didn't think much of it at first but now it really gave me hope that if people still care they'll come around eventually. I can only hope so.
...I'm also thankful for Smash because it helped me make a lot of friends and have a lot of fun. :]
I'm thankful for NoDoz too.
2008-11-22
2008-11-12
spooked...
I embarrassed myself this morning. I started the morning in Physics, dozing off as I normally do. I can't get enough sleep at night when it's quiet for some reason. Instead, I tend to fall asleep when either a.) in a moving car (passenger seat or behind the wheel, regardless. teehee) or b.) when I'm subjected to listening to a loud, monotonous voice. In this case, it's my Physics professor, who somehow manages to yell into the microphone. Another example of this phenomenon would be a priest on a loudspeaker system during mass. Terrible, I know...
Moving on, as I was half asleep and zombie-walking through the park in my sagged jeans, I end up in Middle Earth. I'm rounding the corner to get to my dorm. Some upper classman of some sort was walking towards me on the same sidewalk, and we make eye contact. In an attempt to avoid getting any more in his way which could potentially result in another awkward sidewalk tango situation, I hugged the edge of the sidewalk near the bushes.
Despite my valiant efforts, I managed to jump and spring into him, flailing my arms in the least masculine fashion after I briefly glanced down at the ground only to find THIS (Do not click if you are squeamish/and or pussy like me)
I would think it's safe to say that something like that was slightly disturbing. I apologized to the guy and showed him what caused the reaction. My attempt to regain my composure and get over the initial embarrassment was interrupted by a random girl from my hall saying behind me, "It's okay, I would have jumped too."
I just frowned and walked inside. Damn you, demonspawn bloody black beady eye socketed rabbit corpses.
Moving on, as I was half asleep and zombie-walking through the park in my sagged jeans, I end up in Middle Earth. I'm rounding the corner to get to my dorm. Some upper classman of some sort was walking towards me on the same sidewalk, and we make eye contact. In an attempt to avoid getting any more in his way which could potentially result in another awkward sidewalk tango situation, I hugged the edge of the sidewalk near the bushes.
Despite my valiant efforts, I managed to jump and spring into him, flailing my arms in the least masculine fashion after I briefly glanced down at the ground only to find THIS (Do not click if you are squeamish/and or pussy like me)
I would think it's safe to say that something like that was slightly disturbing. I apologized to the guy and showed him what caused the reaction. My attempt to regain my composure and get over the initial embarrassment was interrupted by a random girl from my hall saying behind me, "It's okay, I would have jumped too."
I just frowned and walked inside. Damn you, demonspawn bloody black beady eye socketed rabbit corpses.
2008-11-11
11/11/08
On 11/11 at 11:11:11PM I couldn't think of what to wish for, so I wished that "things would get better."
But by sharing that with you, my loyal readers, I have just destroyed any possibility of that wish coming true. Supposedly if you wish for something and let people know what you wished for, it won't come true.
But what good comes from secrets anyway?
But by sharing that with you, my loyal readers, I have just destroyed any possibility of that wish coming true. Supposedly if you wish for something and let people know what you wished for, it won't come true.
But what good comes from secrets anyway?
veteran's day
So today I said perhaps the most pathetic sentence in existence:
"One adult ticket to High School Musical 3, please."
"One adult ticket to High School Musical 3, please."
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